Amani's Xanga

Saturday, December 06, 2003

Sat, 06 Dec 2003 15:04:48 GMT

Well, it seems I survived my exam :) Or, to put it differently - I know that I did really well on the first part and really bad on the second one. The paper had two parts, and I didn't have enough time to do the last part properly. It felt like I had to stop in the middle of what I wanted to say. If they judge it only on what I wrote there, I will fail for sure....But I hope the first part makes up for it. I'm not good at this literary analysis thing from before, so I hope I pass!

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 18:08:05 GMT

I'm so nervous now that I don't know how to survive the next two days. My exam is on friday, and even though I feel that I've been good at revising and working quite a lot during the whole term, I feel that I may still get some questions I don't have a clue how to answer. I suppose the main reason for this panic was the last chapter of our style analysis book. It consisted entirely of an analysis of a danish political text. And in short....I didn't understand more than a little bit of that analysis. Maybe it was partly because the base text was in Danish or something, and I may not automatically understand all things in Danish, even though the language is closely related to Norwegian and it should be possible to understand most of it. The second problem was of course the genre. We have been working mostly with "easier" texts, such as commercials and so on. We have only done one political text before, and my analysis of that one wasn't great either....so, in short - I don't want political texts for the text analysis part.

Also, we have been told for most of the term that the analysis part is THE thing to concentrate on. Everything else is there just to help us make a more complete text analysis. But last week, in the last lecture before the exam, we were suddenly told that we had to learn to draw various analysis-models and explain them from a theoretical point of view, not just use them as part of an analysis. So this is also a reason to be nervous. I was only half-good at those stupid models from before....blah!

I'll just have to hope for the best, but I don't have a good feeling for this exam at all. Of course it's normal to be nervous, but is it normal to be as nervous as I am now?

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 15:55:10 GMT

Wow, it's been too long since I posted here...I have been posting a bit more on LiveJournal, but the community there is not as good as the one here, so I don't know why I don't just come back here. I wish I could find a way to post to both places at the same time :)

Anyway, what's new with me....since I haven't posted since January, it must be quite a lot. But the most important thing is that I stopped working now, because the company I was working for found out that they did not need their computers department anymore. That meant that two people had to stop working there, and I was one of them. A bit sad, but not as bad as it sounds. I got through that period quite fine.

The second important thing is that I started studying in August. Since then, I've been studying Nordic languages and culture at University level. My school is not really an Uni yet (will be from 2005 hopefully), but I don't know what such schools are called in English - you know, those that teach courses at University level, but do not have University status because they don't offer enough different subjects and such. Here, it's called "High School" if it's translated directly, but that seems to be something totally different in English, so I don't really know what to call it. It's easier to just say Uni, right?

I must say that I enjoy studying, but right now it's also a lot of work. I have an exam on friday, and another one about 10 days after that. Since I have to go and revise soon, I'll have to write more about that later.

...at least you know that I'm still here now :)

Monday, January 13, 2003

Mon, 13 Jan 2003 12:41:06 GMT

OK, since I'm starting to post here again, I should get a new user picture too. The little box with the red cross in it looks kind of silly, really. But I don't know what to put, so I'll have to think of something.

Anyway, that was not what I wanted to talk about...

There are lots of weird people online. Even though I tend to meet mostly nice people online, I've met some weird ones too. Especially at a community I was in before. Some of the people there became really close friends, and even though I was never part of their "gang", I was friends with them too. At one point, it came to a conflict with them and some other people. In this conflict, I was with the "other people". So...after even more time, all of this friends' group stopped coming to the community, but they still keep talking bad about the people there, reading the forum just to have something bad to say about those who are still there, writing in their LiveJournals about it and so on. Personally, I think that if you quit an online community, then it should be quits - you shouldn't make it your next big hobby to write bad stuff about others everywhere just because they disagreed with you on some matter that was on discussion about 6 months to a year back. I just think it's weird. And even more weird, because I always considered them nice people, and I would expect them to act more "normal". But they don't. I just can't understand what happiness they get from such a behaviour?

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

Wed, 08 Jan 2003 07:25:27 GMT

TWO-FACED LIAR

You say you’re my friend
You pretend to understand me
You speak words of comfort
To make me trust you
And tell you what’s on my mind

Then you turn away
and tell everyone what I said
My words become twisted
so I can’t recognize them
Just because of a two-faced liar

But through the dissappointment
I still have my pride
Because I know that I was honest
and can stand for all I said
And how can a two-faced liar do that?

(c) L.S. 07.01.2003

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

Wed, 08 Jan 2003 07:18:10 GMT

Well, I don't post here that much anymore. It seems I'm more active at LiveJournal. But I need to say some things here too. (Don't know if I can manage keeping two journals, but I'll try to post here at least sometimes, especially since the community is much better here than at LJ).

By the way, for tooty_fruity_bootylicious: Thanks for asking about my hip and everything. I haven't written anything about it here, so it's not strange that you wonder about it. When I finally got the results from the X-ray pictures, I got to know that my left hip joint was misplaced. Or more true: The place where the two bones in there were supposed to join, was just space...sounds weird, eh?

Anyway, I had surgery on it back in August 2002, and my hip joint was replaced by an artificial joint. Some plastic/metallic, strange-looking thing, but at least it works - I don't feel any pain anymore. I still need to do excersises, go to physical theraphy and so on to learn to walk, though. Sometimes I hate that, too, but it's okay really - at least much better than the situation was before. There are some things I'm not allowed to do at all, things like sitting on the floor or bending my hip joint more than 90 degrees or so. Sometimes I hate that too, but as I adjust more to it, it's not so bad. So - I'm happy, and health-wise I'm okay too. Thanks for asking.

Thursday, September 12, 2002

Thu, 12 Sep 2002 16:23:16 GMT

Wow, I haven't written anything here since MAY! Imagine that - it's a very long time. For some time I wrote at LiveJournal instead, but most of the time I haven't written anything anywhere. But I miss Xanga, so I'll be back to writing here regularly.

Since last time, a lot of things are new with me. First of all - I had surgery on my left hip, and I don't have any problems with it anymore! So..you won't hear me complain in every second entry from now on. Of course I need a lot of training and so on..and of course it's going to get on my nerves every now and then - but I don't feel any pain, I sleep well at night and I feel better than I did for a LONG time! That's the important thing, right?

Sunday, May 19, 2002

Sun, 19 May 2002 08:50:51 GMT

Thank you to all my friends here for being the great people that you are.
Thank you for putting up with me through thick and thin for a little more than a year.
Thank you for leaving those comments that so often made my day.

I will miss you all, but I'll have to go away for some time now. Maybe some day I will come back, but in the current situation I'm not sure. It seems I'm moving to livejournal, and I'm also writing a more personal diary at my home page (http://home.no.net/lizzsch), so keeping up with 3 diaries might just be too much.

As I said, I might drop by every now and then, but I won't post regularly here anymore.

Hugs for everyone - you will be missed!

Tuesday, April 30, 2002

Tue, 30 Apr 2002 13:47:48 GMT

This is a repost from my other journal yesterday!

I'm angry now because I live in such an idiotic country where you have to wait about a year to get to hospital if you need surgery but is not dying. Some of you might have heard me speaking about my foot for a while now, so it's nothing new. It's just that it drives me crazy not being able to walk one step without holding on to something, and it drives me even more crazy not being able to sleep at night because of the pain. Something inside my hip is misplaced, and I have to have surgery to fix it, but since it is not a life-threathening illness, I will have to live with it until further notice.

Last thing I heard, I had to wait at least 4 months just to go to hospital for a "check-up", and after that they decide how urgently I need the surgery. Why does it seem people who work in that stupid system never get sick? Maybe that's the only way they could realize the system just is not working the way it should! The only way to get around those procedures is if my doctor says surgery is needed urgently, but he just won't say that...

OK - I'm not stupid, I know that I'm not going to die from this, but I'm 24 years old, I want to have a life, be with friends, be able to travel around and most of all - be independent and not having to rely on the help of other people to do the simplest of things! Don't such things count?! Living like I do now is driving me crazy sometimes....while some other times I just realized this is the way things are right now, and I just have to make the best out of it. Does it make sense?

Thursday, April 25, 2002

Thu, 25 Apr 2002 14:23:30 GMT

Yay! I'm amazed at how crazy some people are. But this time I'm speaking about "crazy" in a positive way.

My mother's friend said a long time ago that she wanted to give me something for my birthday (which was on April 16th), but I thought she had forgot...and really - I didn't expect to get anything from her, even though she said she'd give me something. So - we visited her today, and then she handed me NOK 200,- (about $20) and said it was for my birthday, and that I should go and buy a present for myself - a CD perhaps? So - it was great news!

After visiting her, I went to the mall, and at one of the record stores there I got myself a new CD...."Definitive Alice Cooper". It's just that...I don't know if I can tell mom's friend what I bought with the money she gave me. If she knows who Alice Cooper is, she might start to lecture me....but most probably she doesn't know who he is, so I guess it should be safe to tell her what I got after all